"When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be" - Lao Tzu
2018 marks three years since I first launched my self-titled website, nyeshalashay.com. What initially began as a digital space to document my hair locking journey has evolved into a cathartic, journal-like archive of personal reflections and other memento that have somehow chronicled a bit of my personal growth. And I have experienced an abundance of growth since that initial launch in the winter of 2015. That being said, I have decided to revamp my website & essentially “start from scratch” in order to honor my growth process.
With 2018 on the horizon, I figured this would be the perfect time to start fresh and distance myself from content that no longer reflects the person I am becoming. I am preparing for yet another cycle of growth and self-realization. For me, the days before the new year is always a time of deep reflection and introspection. I reflect on what I have gained and learned during the year, set intentions/positive affirmations, set practical goals to work towards, and ultimately meditate on gratitude. This process is different (and non-linear) for me every year, but this year, I wanted to be more intentional about how I transition into 2018. So I came up with this list of questions to ask myself in my journal:
- What are you leaving, and what are you bringing with you, into the new year?
- What did you lose, and what did you gain/create in 2017?
- What are you proud of accomplishing in 2017? What did you have to sacrifice to achieve it?
- What boundaries are you drawing or reinforcing in 2018?
- What healthy habits are you bringing into the new year? How will you hold yourself accountable?
- What do you want your legacy to be, and how will you work towards this vision in the new year?
- What inspires you? How will you surround yourself with inspiration, and stay inspired, in the new year?
- How did you show your body love in 2017? How will you show yourself love in the new year?
- What did love (romantic, familial, platonic, extra-familial etc.) teach you in 2017?
- What is your vision for 2018? What mantras will you work from in 2018?
Journaling is something that I want to be more consistent and intentional about doing in the new year. I find that writing not only helps me put words to my feelings, but it also forces me to slow down and think more deeply about the way I put my innermost thoughts into words. I find that coming up with a list of questions or topics to address in my journal helps guide my writing process by narrowing my focus, which makes intimate writing feel less daunting.
Being honest with myself and having confidence in my journey are some of my top priorities for the new year. By shedding old layers and letting go of the things that no longer reflect who I am becoming, I am freeing up space to bloom. I am opening myself up to the new beginnings that 2018 is offering, and I accept growing pains with the confidence of knowing that this journey is perfectly mine. Letting go of fears, anxieties, comparison, and self-doubt and connecting with trust, self-assurance, gratitude, and self-love.